Learning from past mistakes

I kept telling myself that over and over again I guess I'm just plain daft and bull-headed I mean just to enlighten you guys, I had mentioned a blue-lanyards guy that I had a major crush on. The first time I saw him was at the medcaf (short for medicine cafeteria) I was eating together with Gia and Gege, after we ate we vacated some seats and took a trip to the ladies room after that we went back to the medcaf of course that was 9 30 in the morning so we didn't assume that anyone would want our seats but there they are.. actually I only saw one the perfect boy.. actually he's not that perfect but he had the right look down pat. ..sigh.. anyway that part wasn't any stupid this part is.. I was trying.. desperately to concentrate on my boo's bones (my frog skeleton) but well my eyes have a magnet to hold on to.. -.-.. I was staring, you guys all know the way I space out right? The look of "cute" dumbness according to my ahia Trent (he's my cousin) I do that all the time what I don't do is that while I'm at this spacing out trace mode is that I was also SIMULTANEOUSLY staring at my new prince charming.. wonderful.. I didn't even notice until Gege was talking to me and of course I caught myself. God I was soo guilty that I was staring at Boo HARD.. as in full concentration. Well my humiliation so didn't end there, after my prince finished eating he got up walked the aisle that I'm facing, stopped dead infront of me and leaned over at me… %^#@ he saw… beet red, roses, tomato my facial cells were over working I could really feel the heat… -.- oh god.. well after an episode like this I really should know better but no.. I just had to do it all over again this year, at least this time he didn't get the chance to take a good look at me.